Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Now We Wait

I just got home from having my blood drawn. I woke up with DH this morning, he was running a bit late so I got up and made his lunch. He gave me a quick goodbye and said, "Oh today's the day we find out if we're pregnant...don't forget!" Oh silly DH-how could I forget, my stomach was already in knots! I waited until the dog got dropped off that we're dog sitting then I laid in bed a little longer and finally at 7:50 I decided to get up and get ready.

I put on my socks that I've worn to every appointment, my fertility earrings and my Runners 4 Luke shirt. Luke is the son of a friend of mine who was killed in 2001 outside the zoo by a drunk driver. I pass by the zoo and the walking bridge, that was built because of Luke's story, every time I go to the doctor's office. I felt like Luke's been with me at every visit so it was only appropriate I wear the Runners 4 Luke shirt.

I get in the car and start my drive, my stomach just eating away at it's self. The radio station I normally listen to was doing a fundraiser for the Children's Hospital so I was in tears by the time I got on the highway. I decided I should change the station to something a little more upbeat. About halfway there, my bestie sorority sis called to check on me and it was great to get my mind off of things. I also got some really amazing tweets, emails and other messages that just meant so much to me.

When I got there, I was surprised to share the elevator with Dr. K. We talked about how the lab was closing for a couple weeks then as we were about to go in the office she asked how I was feeling and I told her nervous because today's the day. She touched her heart and said, "Oh I pray..." I know I'm many of her patients and she probably couldn't remember my name but I could tell she was sincere. OH! She also asked me if I'd cheated and I told her no. That if it came back negative, I didn't want the pain of hearing it twice.

I headed in for the big blood draw. She had to dig around for a vein but I think I'm immune to it and it didn't even hurt. As soon as it was done (she forgot to draw the extra blood for the study I'm doing-oops!), my stomach wasn't as nervous. I walked out and asked the receptionist if I could FINALLY meet Mary. She told me I'd probably have to wait for a few minutes and I said that was okay. I mean I was either going to wait there or at home, right?

While I was waiting for Mary, I FINALLY figured out how to use the Wi-Fi!!! She came out and we chatted and she gave me a hug. She said she saw today was "the day" and she had her fingers crossed for me. I left and said, "Not to be mean but I only hope I see you guys a couple more times!" She laughed and said her too.

Then I headed home and let the pups out, put on my comfy pj pants but left on my socks, shirt and earrings. And now, well now I just wait...


Christa said...

Eeeek! I'm so incredibly proud of you (and jealous of your self-control) for not POAS-ing yet. I'm pretty sure I won't have the discipline. I can't wait to hear the news - my fingers are crossed so incredibly hard for you!!!

Shawna said...

I love Dr. K. They all seem really nice and sincere. It's funny, you got my dr for retrieval, I will prob get stuck with yours. lol I want mine though!!!!! Well, I worked mids last night and then got stuck for days because someone called in sick, so as soon as I get off I will be heading to bed cuz I come back tonight. But the first thing I am gonna check tonight is your blog for good news.

~Jess said...

Sending you prayers!

Conceptionally Challenged said...

Thinking many positive thoughts for you!

Kevin and Katie said...

Crossing fingers and saying prayers for you!!!