Game Plan

4/30/10

After we left Dr. Val's office and discussed everything, as emotionally torn as I was, I was also kind of relieved. Finally no more timed every other day sex, we could actually enjoy sex again without having to squeeze it in on a particular day because I was ovulating. No more planning social activities around ovulation days (if we're going to visit a friend out of town staying in their living room and I'm ovulating, not really the optimal time for baby making). Knowing that we only had a .2% chance of conceiving naturally, hopefully I won't be getting my hopes up every month to be let down...now the month we try IVF, if we do, oh boy...I'll be a ball of nerves.

Here's the game plan that we came up with. I'm going to start seeing a therapist. TTC really takes a toll. It sparks fights over everything, it makes you feel like a failure, you're up one minute laughing and down the next when your period arrives and in the midst of all that, I'm a woman so I'm constantly struggling with my body image so all that combined has really taken a toll on our marriage. Basically, I need to get to my happy place before I embark in the next step of this journey.

In the mean time, we're still not 100% sold on IVF but we are going to start saving for it, see where we are financially, emotionally, mentally in the fall and revisit the issue then. So hopefully that means we can sit back and enjoy our summer!