Feeling Cheated

This is how infertility works, you can be going about your day, minding your own business not thinking about the fact that you can't have a child then BAM! It hits you...out of no where!!! So I was driving home from work today and suddenly I started thinking about all the pregnant women out there and then I started thinking about my situation.

I don't think it's fair and I feel cheated that I have to raise $15,000 to even TRY to have a baby. I mean, for those that haven't experienced infertility, they got to get pregnant the good 'ole fashion way but for me, I have to raise $15,000 plus some to make sure that if I DO get pregnant, I can afford to get started with a baby, does that seem fair?

I've posted some thoughts before similar to this but I also feel cheated because I don't get to "accidentally" get pregnant. I will have one shot at *hopefully* getting a BFP and if I don't then I don't get another chance or if I do...I'll have to come up with another $15,000. I feel as though I've been cheated or is it that I'm trying to cheat the system? I've been told that I can't have a baby unless I raise $15,000 so whose REALLY being cheated...me? Or the system?

All I know is, IT'S NOT FAIR!!! (Yes, I'm whining and yes I'm throwing a tantrum!!!)