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Thursday, June 17, 2010

28

I had planned on getting pregnant at 26 and having our first child at 27. We'd wait four years to have our second so I would be 31 (and we wouldn't have to pay double child care). We both agreed that we wanted to have our first by 30 and that we wanted to have two. Now my entire year of 27 won't be seen pregnant or as having a baby, heck-we may not even be able to *try* (try as in in-vitro) this entire year of 27.

So 27 is a wasted year in baby making speak. At the earliest, I will be 28 when we have our first child and a second child isn't even a question, heck a second try at a child if the first IVF doesn't work may not even be in the question. In other words, I'll know by age 28 if we're having any kids or not. By age 28, I'll know if I'm ever going to be a mother. At age 28, there may possibly be finality in our infertility journey.

At 28, I'll feel old...older than I'll ever be yet 28 is such a young number.

5 comments:

Conceptionally Challenged said...

I so hope you will get lucky with your first IVF. The waiting and not knowing can be terrible, wearing, making you grow gray hair. (As if we didn't feel old enough already.)
Thinking of you.

Angie said...

Just remember I had my first at 37, and I'm doing just fine! I didn't even meet my hubby til I was 30. I got a late start in life ;)

JC said...

I planned on having 2 kids by 30. I guess 27 and 29? Umm...yea...life has a way of effing up any plans you would have. Now I only want 1 and obviously have no time line anymore b/c I have zero control. I turn 29 in August. But I do want to start the adoption process while I'm 29. It's too early to start in August, we're not ready yet. But maybe at the end of the year. I'm becoming more "ok" with having a baby later than I wanted to. Like 30 or early 30's. I just think about how "ready" we will be and what great parents we will be because of this. We'll never take anything for granted...and I see a lot of people do that.

PS-hope you get lucky with 28. =)

Wishing 4 One said...

I will be 38 when I deliver my son as long as everything continues well. Twenty eight will be it for you, I am hoping, praying, wishing, dancing and crossing it all for you my "young" friend. xoxo

Josey said...

Ugh, this is such a familiar feeling. We got married in 2008 as well... and I figured I'd be pregnant at 27 with our first. Now I'm turning 29 in January with no end in sight. Frustrating!!! The best laid plans go awry...