This morning I woke up in a funk, upset at a comment DH made. My good friend B called me to discuss the half marathon we're doing together in May. Then we got to chatting about our hubs and how they sometimes drives us bananas (admit it-yours do too!) then she wanted to tell me a story. She told me when we were going through IVF, she had told her co-workers about it and asked them to pray extra hard for us. She said there was one lady in particular that would ask about me daily and kept telling B she was praying for us. Then B had to break the news to this lady that it didn't work and the lady started crying!!! She told B that she really wanted this to work for us and was upset that it didn't. How sweet is that! She doesn't even know me!?!
I told B to tell her thanks, that we appreciated it and we needed all the prayers we could get. This just totally touches my heart but at the same time it makes me sad. I know SO many people were rooting and praying for us and all we got was a BFN. I've been praying lately, not for our FET to be successful, but for God to give me patience, guidance, and understanding and not to make me a resentful person. So far, I've received none of those prayer requests. It's frustrating but like B told me, maybe the prayers are being answered in another way that I just don't see. Sigh...I wish I could see!!!
Its Been 5 Years. Wow.
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That is so so sweet!!!! I told lots of people about our IVF because I truly am a believer of prayer, but when we also got our BFN, it made it so hard. It would've been nice being able to grieve privately, ya know? I am absolutely positive your current prayers are being answered in another way. God doesn't give us pain and trials for nothing. There is always something bigger and better being worked behind the scenes. We just have to remain faithful. And good for you for running a half marathon in May. I'm sure that takes your minds of your FET...at least a little bit?
That truly is very sweet. I've been praying a bit along the same lines lately. I used to get angry and frustrated when people would tell me "God has a plan" or "In His time." Lately though, I've started realizing that no matter how hard I try, this is all completely out of my control, and getting angrier hasn't been helping. So I've been trying more to listen and be open to the ways this journey can change me for the better. I do pray with you for patience, resilience, and endurance. And I'm praying that your FET does bring you your child.
What a sweet women and friend for asking for prayers on your behalf. This is suck a tough journey and knowing others are their praying and rooting you on can be comforting. it is very hard to pray and not see any 'results', but its true that sometimes those prayers are being heard and will be answered; in some fashion. As well as praying for our miracle, I have been praying hard for Him to take my anxiety, sadness and anger away. This experience has changed me and although sometimes I think for the better, other times I see how it has in a negative way. Hoping that finding a way to make those feelings dissolve will bring me closer to being the girl I used to be; happier, freer and more positive. :)
I feel the same way. Maybe one day we will get our answers.
I think it is very wise of you to pray for patience, strength, and guidance. God works in mysterious ways like you said and it is hard to trust in him sometimes. I was praying hard for you too and I know it's upsetting when we don't understand his plan. Keep praying and hanging in there! I'm always here for you!
It's nice to know that strangers care so much...they become vested in our outcomes. so very sweet.
I pray for Gods Grace to get me through this time with a light heart. So far, so good...although I think I did have to work through some of the pain and hurt and anger earlier on in my journey. Sometimes I just feel numb or happy then feel guilty for being ok with where I am in this journey, thinking I should be more upset or hurt. It's such a whirlwind of emotions all very difficult to wrap our heads around. Xoxoxoxox
How awesome!
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