Scheduled!

I called today and scheduled our FET for this fall...and I was sick to my stomach for about an hour afterwards. When we started IVF, I was so excited! We were FINALLY TTC, we were doing something, I was in the process of making our dream come true. Now while we got a BFN, we also got 3 totsicles and not everyone can say that.

Right now we have 3 threads of hope that we're holding on to, three tots waiting for me and after the FET, we'll either have them in the oven or nothing at all. So yes, I'm super excited about doing the FET (and not having nearly as many injections) but I'm also scared. As I explained it to a friend today, IVF went *fairly* smooth for us, it wasn't a bad experience...until we got the phone call about the BFN and then it was HORRIBLE. I was lost, confused, upset, pissed, torn...it was the most awful day ever and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. I'm so afraid I'm going to have another one of those days this fall.

I wrote down all the tentative dates and then I barely whispered in the phone, now what day do you think will be the beta? As I just said the b-word, my stomach dropped and I jotted down what she told me. So now I know when B-Day is...b for beta, b for bad, b for babies-AGH!

For now, I'm just focusing on my running and my busy season at work and then I'll start thinking about the FET. I pray for our totsicles every night and now I'll pray for B-Day to be for babies!