No Crib For You

So we had a really awesome weekend, just had our orientation last Thursday and was kind of getting excited about that, got to see some good friends, got in some good workouts, got a lot done around the house then DH got a phone call Sunday night that sent me to Grumpyville, seriously, I think I'm already pregnant or on the drugs for IVF with the major mood swing I had.

DH's friend whose girlfriend "accidentally" got pregnant was on their way home from a baby shower. He was calling to see if DH could help him carry stuff into their house. Hit number one...

As DH was leaving, I asked when he'd be home. He said around 9 which was two hours later. I was like how long does it take to carry stuff into his house. DH told me, well, I'll probably help him put together the crib and everything. Wow...hit number two and that's all it took. I asked DH if it made him sad that this might be the only time that he'll ever get to put a crib together. Of course, he was like no, I just look forward to when I can do it for us. Yeah, but what if that day doesn't come?

Which brings me to another point...I know I've been chastised for being negative on this blog to which my response is-it's my blog! Anyways, I am kind of excited to start IVF and I know that they say positive thinking helps everything but I'm a realist. I mean basically we've been given a 50/50 shot that this will even work. I already thought we'd get pregnant naturally and got excited about putting our baby's crib together and how we'd tell people and names for the baby and thought about parenting and childcare, etc...only to be majorly let down. So my thoughts now are do I give in and get excited again for the next 3 months and work myself up over all those thoughts again only to be let down AGAIN but this time 100 million times worse because it's our only and last chance?

Ugh, it totally sucks when you realize there's no crib for you...