Flo Time and Random Stories

Yep, Aunt Flo made her debut while on vacay late on Saturday night which would technically be a start date of Sunday. I called Dr. Val's office to inform them. I start my BCP on Thursday, meds are getting delivered on Saturday, and I start my lupron shots on 11/7. Holy cow!?! Can you believe this?! It's really time to start!!! It's exciting, overwhelming and really freakin' scary all at the same time! I just hope I don't screw anything up. I am hoping that the 3 weeks I'll be on BCP that I'll have a clearer complexion but I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

Now for a couple side stories...

*On the last leg home from our road trip last night, I called my SIL. Our meds are to be delivered on Saturday. I have to be at work no later than 2:30, DH has to be at work no later than 3:30. I called to ask her if she was available Saturday and the meds weren't there by 3 if she could come hang out at our house and sign for them (she lives literally 30 seconds away from us). Her response, "Um...okay..." Okay, granted I'd been in the car for 10+ hours already but really? Just say yes or no. You offered if there was anything that you could do to help, let her know...well, I'm asking for help. I mean you're signing for a package, not selling drugs or injecting drugs or anything like that. Grrr...cross your fingers that they get here before 3.

*I went to my MIL's house today to print off a coupon (I'm a total nerd, I know!). I was talking to her about my trip and then my FIL said, "Okay get to the important stuff, how's the grandbaby making going?" Umm...AWKWARD!!! How do you respond to that? Um...we're trying every other day...I just started my period. Seriously, more people know about my period now than I care to count!

Anyways, that just leads into this two hour convo with my MIL (FIL left when I said nothing to report and I never made it to the store with my coupon!). In which she asks if we'd just wait another year and keep trying naturally it might work, give DH more time to clear out his system from his "party days." She also tells me all these things I need to tell my doctor (like that I was in the car for 10 hours because that could mess up your cycle), vitamins to take, and that she doesn't like my doctor. All things that I do NOT NEED TO HEAR RIGHT NOW! Sometimes I think she thinks that we just decided to have IVF for the fun of it and didn't do any research. I don't think she believes the things we tell her. I don't think she realizes that DH's sperm count ain't getting any better and the sooner we try, if it doesn't work then the sooner we can save up the money again (if we choose to do it again) and still be somewhat young.

THEN she asks whose going to watch the baby next year when we have it. WHAT?! Insert my head spinning in circles! I was like that's too far off to think about in which she tells me, "No, it's not." Um, yes it is...my new mantra is focus on a month at a time and try not to get your hopes up. Right now I'm focused on shots, next month will be ER then the next month will be ET. I told her that DH and I already played this game when we first started trying. We can't do that because I'll be pregnant...we'll have a baby at that time...researching childcare prices and providers...etc...I'm NOT doing that again. It's like a MAJOR disappointment and letdown. Seriously, all I wanted was to print my coupon and instead I just got bombarded with STRESS!!! And this my friends is exactly why I didn't want to tell his family because guess how many questions they've asked him...ZERO! Me? A MILLION!

Special People

This weekend I'm on a girls trip to a friend's destination wedding. It has been interesting to say the least but its a nice. I've found that I've got some good friends that aren't afraid to ask straight up questions about IVF and help me laugh about it. I mean if you can't make fun of yourself then life is REALLY hard.

After a 10+ hour car ride, a late night, an early morning and a LONG day, we were having bbq with the bride's family and everyone that came for the wedding. Her dad and I were visiting and catching up when he said that his daughter (my friend) had told him that we were having problems conceiving. He went on to tell me that he had been praying for us and hoped that was okay because he wanted to continue praying for us.

OMG! Waterworks Central! I told him we really appreciated it inbetween the tears. It's great to know that so many people are thinking and praying for us because this is really a scary, exciting and extremely overwhelming chapter we're about to enter. So thank you to all those out there who keep DH and I in your thoughts and prayers. We appreciate it more than words can say and love you all.

To sign off, here's a picture of the sunrise I saw this morning...now I'm off to sleep!

First & Second

Yesterday marked our second wedding anniversary and our first anniversary of TTC. Year #2 was quite the roller coaster for us and I definitely think it should have counted for a couple years instead of just one. We had a great evening at home, relaxing and me trying to finalize everything for our IVF since I'll be gone later this week and my period is supposed to start next week. I can't believe it's really here...it's almost IVF time! Crazy!!! I hope year #3 and #2 is a good one for us.

Praying for a Miracle

A friend of mine had told me about a spiritual center here in town that has a statue of St. Therese who performs miracles. I'm not Catholic so I'm not sure how saints and such work but I read up about her on their website and thought I'd go visit Therese. I mean, what have I got to lose, right?

We got there and the man in charge, Jack, greeted us. He was meeting with another couple and their friend so we joined them and he was telling us about the local miracles she performed. He looked right at DH and I and said, "I was just telling them how 11 couples had gotten pregnant after visiting Therese." We hadn't mentioned a WORD about us other than our names but he felt the need to tell us that. I hope we're couple #12! We listened to the rest of the stories and then he took the other people on a tour of the rest of the place.

I handed DH the handout on her so he could read. Jack had told us to be sure to look Therese in her eyes because they were so lifelike. While DH read, I sat on the floor and looked Therese in the eyes. In my mind, I spoke to her and told her all about our journey and what we were headed into. Jack had told us that other people had seen her move and I really wanted to see her move but I didn't but that's okay. I asked DH if he wanted to pray to Therese and his response was, "I pray to Jesus." I knew at that point that he was just there for me, letting me try what I thought I needed to try and I appreciated that.

I wrote down my prayer on a piece of paper and added it to the basket. They had rose petals there that Therese had blessed and I took a couple home then I lit a candle for us. I touched Therese and looked her in the eyes again, asking her for help and guidance. Then I snapped a picture which I'm not sure is allowed. He didn't say you couldn't take a picture, there was no sign stating that and someone else had but just to be on the safe side, I haven't posted it.

I thanked Jack for letting us visit and told him I'd be back. Therese is about two exits from Dr. Val's office so I'm going to make it a point to try to stop by and visit with her either before or after my visits to Dr. Val.

Since we were in a different part of town, we decided to grab dinner in that area. Here was our convo at dinner:

Me: Know what I prayed for?

DH: I hope a baby!

Me: No, well yes...I actually prayed for patience and understanding and to bless us with a child. Don't you think that was good to pray for because we all know I don't have patience?

DH: Yeah, you're right about that but you can't tell me what you pray for.

Me: (confused) What? Yes I can, it's not like a birthday wish! If I tell you, it's not like it won't come true!

DH: Oh....

He's so goofy sometimes! Oh, at the spiritual center, you have to take your shoes off. Well, today was a hot, fall day and I was wearing sandals. Know what good 'ole OCD me did? I took a pair of socks to change into!

It was a very interesting day and it gave me hope. I'm feeling good going into the start of our IVF and I'm actually looking forward to more visits with Therese.

IVF=OCD

I was on my Itouch the other night sending a message to someone about our IVF. Know what it automatically corrected IVF to? OCD.

One Chapter Done & the Start of Another

I ran a marathon yesterday. 26.2 miles. I did it for me and for our "baby." Someone I know that struggled with IF told me that they'd told themselves that they were either going to run a marathon or get pregnant one year...she didn't do either. I knew I had to do this and I did. It was a long, emotional day full of pain and tears but my running partner was great. She asked me about the IVF and how it worked and what room would be the baby's room and she kept reminding me, "Once we get through today's challenge, then you have your baby to focus on." It really felt great to hear that encouragement.

Amazingly, even though my body is in major achiness and soreness mode, I feel tons better about IVF. I mean my thought process was if I can do this, I can do anything. So now I'm going to close the chapter of my life on running and focus on the next chapter which is IVF and having a healthy baby. It feels great!

I Think I Met a Prophet

Or at least I hope I did! This is a crazy weekend for DH and I. We just got home from a friend's bonfire, a celebration/hangout before his wedding tomorrow. We met one of his friends that we've NEVER met before. He asked how long we were married and if we had any kids. We said no but that we had two furbabies that were our family so it would be awhile before we had kids. That's how I answer that question because then usually the convo turns to dogs and away from kids. I missed what DH said but he kept saying, oh she's ready, she's definitely ready for kids. Then this guy that we just met who knows absolutely NOTHING about us says, "Oh it'll be soon...it'll happen by the end of this year...you'll know by Christmas." I shot DH a look like WTH!?! Have you told him anything? Because that's all true!!! We will know by the end of the year and we'll be finding out right around Christmas time. He said it would happen so I'm really hoping this man is a prophet and that he's telling the truth!!!